Puppies

I have a visiting puppy at my house today.  As a favor to one of my daycare moms I agreed to watch her kids AND her new puppy so she could do some shopping on her day off.

I'd forgotten how much I loved having a dog in the house.  It's been several years since I put my dog down, and I've never really missed her.  I was sad, I loved her more than anyone, but I didn't MISS her.  The day I put her down was horrible, and I still remember how heartbreaking it was to be doing that all by myself, however this happened during a time when I was still several layers into a really deep depression.  The reality of it was pretty removed from where I was.

Since then, I've just avoided contact with dogs.  It is almost distasteful to be around one.  I have a busy life, and having a dog can be inconvenient and expensive, but I used to be a true dog-lover, and I am quite the opposite now.

Until today.  Having this puppy, who doesn't even know me, following me around all day, sleeping at my feet, and just being an all around sweet little thing, made me realize how much I miss having a dog.  I'm practical enough to know I can't fit a dog into my life right now.  Neither my space, my schedule, nor my husband would make having a dog easy.  But it makes me happy to know I might be softening some.  There's hope for this cold heart!