Time

It's amazing how the days fly by without even noticing.  It's Friday, finally.

My mind is a whirlwind of fragments.  No thought is sticking around for long, which inevitably puts me in a state of panic.  I feel like I'm forgetting something, or missing something important when my thoughts aren't cohesive.

And for the first time ever I'm having trouble sleeping.  Well, I guess ever is not the right word.  This problem started this year, so it's not exactly new.  But it is still surprising, because I've always been able to sleep through anything.  Nothing ever bothered me enough to affect my sleep.  Now I stay awake at night trying to remember the things I'm supposed to be doing, or worrying about things I can do nothing about.  I always thought that was an old person's affliction.  Am I that old? 

Killin' Time

I'm busy.  

Aren't we all?  

I have several unfinished projects on the back burner.  And my day job, of course.  And school.  

But lately, for the last two weeks or so, I feel like I've just been killing time.  I'm not sure why, exactly.  I've been ignoring my school work, and not even thinking about the unfinished projects.  I've barely been getting from one day to the next.

I have been fulfilling my duties for work.  I've also been consistently working on my obsession to finding the secret to lowering my grocery budget, as well as figuring the best budgeting technique for our needs. 

I know part of the problem is that I've been indulging my love of reading.  I love to read fiction.  I have a strict policy of not reading for fun while school is in session, because I can easily get lost in a book and neglect everything else.  However, I have a box full of books I haven't read sitting outside my bedroom door taunting me every time I go in and out.  So, yeah.  I read a couple of them this week.

I've also been watching TV again.  I don't know of a bigger time drain than television.  I generally don't spend much time on that.  The few shows I am interested in get recorded, so I can watch without commercials.  However, watching television is exactly what I want to do when I don't want to think, and I've noticed that I've been doing that a lot these last couple of weeks.

I don't know what the problem is.  I can't explain the sudden lack of focus.  I just know I've been killing time.

Funny.  I didn't think I had any time to kill...